Skittles: why is my heart so heavy?

I saw Amoriartii on my way to world pride.  I had a layover in DC and we met up for lunch.  It was a relatively nice lunch, nothing of consequence was discussed so nothing happened. I left felling rather empty and unfulfilled. I didn't really have anything on my brain that I wanted to talk about. I guess I should have said I've been feeling neglected but I forgot.  I'll address it in our next letter. Normally my heart feels overjoyed and light after I have a nice visit. But I don't feel that. I want to feel more. I want to be overcome with love but I just feel heavy.