As I've grown into my identities I've really learned to love myself. Yesterday at Pride fest with my friends I just stopped. The music kept playing and people kept dancing. I just looked around and thought wow, look at all these happy people. Happy to be here, happy to be alive right now, and surrounded by love. Everything oozed joy. I thought to myself, I love this. I look forward to this every year. I would never have known such exstacy if I wasn't queer. I love being queer. Then I was in the club with my friends from college and again I was overcome with just a profound sense of peace. This is where I belong, this is so right. I've never doubted if I was suppose to be bisexual and non binary. I have wondered what my life would be like if I rejected myself and just the thought that I wouldn't know the people I do now. I wouldn't know the happiness this life has brought me. I wouldn't have the resúme I do. To be able to watch my friends be able to have fun and not be afraid of persecution or hate is a gift. We have our own spaces and it's really something to have room to be oursevles. I love being queer, despite everything we go through and all the hate we face, I wouldn't change. Most all of my current friends wouldn't change either. I havpe never lived through a medical epidemic that killed of my friends, or had my spaces raided by police. We don't get a lot of the first had hate. We get protested, beat up, or discriminated against. I have never been beaten for being queer so I think that's why I wouldn't change. I don't know how bad it could be. But some of my friends have and still wouldn't change if they could. I think it's this knowledge of having experienced something amazing becuase we are queer that makes us know we are perfect this way. I really could not ask for more in moment than the realization that you're exactly who you're suppose to be.
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