Skit: rainbow flags

hey, hey ,hey. you all know a lot about my life and the people in my life. i know last time i was complaining about my working friends well i am done with that for the moment. i want to talk about something completely unrelated, hahaha,  not really. this time we are back talking about my theater friends. " oh skittles you are so queer, you do theater and softball and are the prez of your QSA gosh"  yes i am very gay, but i don't care. but there is a side to me that you all never see. a side that all of my theater friends call the dark side. yes the straight side. ( i say this in the most comical non  offense side  way possible cuz there is nothing wrong with being insert prefix here sexual or trans) yeah they pick on me because they met some of my straight friends and they were telling them they never would have pegged me as gay if i wouldn't have told them. they like to say i am straighter than a ruler. then my queer friends are like dude she is gayer tan all of boys town put together. "skittles we love you but is there a point to this story"   i think so i just haven't arrived at it yet you gots to be patience. were was i going with this? ... hmmmmm i feel like there was a point to this story but i lost it. wait i found it again. okay. watching my friends talk to each other i realized what i diverse group of friends i have.  this of course led to a discussion about diversity. we decided that you know a little diversty was a good thing or else the world would be very vanilla. i mean that is what the rainbow flag is about representing the diversity in the world. we all agreed that being a well rounded person is the type of person we all want to be. i mean think about it the most interesting man in the world ( the vodka commercial)  he is pretty well rounded, he has inside joke with complete strangers i mean that is pretty cool. any way i am rambling so i will get to the point don't be afraid to step out of your zone a little or do that one thing that you've always wanted to do. go take that jump. it is spring time time for new life stuff. so be bold 

okay so whats been going on with me you may ask cuz this part , this part right her is your favorite part of the blog. well i am sorry to disappoint you but this part will be relativity short on what i have been doing filled up with more of this fluffy stuff. look i already have like three lines of fluff. fluffity fluffy fluffier fluffiness. what have i been doing you ask. well it has only been a week so not to much. it has been a rather uneventful week. " but skittle you always have fun stories to tell us this is why we love story time with you" oh you guys are to kind there is a story but it is about how me the lady killer that i am got tripped up by one of her very attractive friends who she is always flirting with. " what happened" she flirted back cue scary music and light and thunder, dun dun daaaaa. lady screams in the background. terrifying right. well it gave me a shock so much so that i dropped my cell phone and looked like a dork but it was cool cuz she thought it was cute so ha suck it. hahaha. but yeah that's my life. now time for more fluff and unimportant things. just kidding. leave me comments though for real i like to hear what people think as much as i love to talk to you all. so leave me some stuff and Stay Fierce 

Skit: "friends" and drama

my board members lol 

okay so i am going to let you guys into my life cuz i need a second opinion. so i am this board of sorts. like any board there are some people who get along better than others. anyway there are people on my board that i thought i got along with, i thought we were "friends". you know work  friends people you really like at work and you could see yourself getting along with even outside of work but never actually hang out with outside of work. well me and this board just held a conference that did not go so well. long story short there is a lot of tension between members now. even among friends. the problem is this board has to plan a social functional and that means we have to work together.  which is hard to do when we just had a, well not a huge fall out but a sizable one. we can not work together if we want to kill each other we have to bring it down to a light maul. so we have to do this retreat thing. i want to do the retreat don't get me wrong but i think it is going to ruin "friendship".  think about it this way, we are basically going to take turns addressing problems we have with each other. i know that doesn't sound so bad but it is, because it is a systematic attack. so emotions are going to run high and people are going to say things they might not really mean. i know personally unless i go first after being attacked be my fellow board members for about 5 mins i am going to be super enraged  and i am not going to care about anyone's feelings not even my "friends". so i thought hey you know i have "friends" on this board let me talk to them individuality that way they don't feel like i am attacking hem in front of everybody then throwing them on the bus. i mean that is what i would want from my friends if they were angry at me i would prefer to hear it from them in private then in front of everybody else. that way it is just me and them. less people , fewer ways to hurt a persons feelings. so i tried that with one of the people on the board we are going to call them Lacy. any way because Lacy doesn't have a cell phone at the time and my laptop web cam was being a jerk i decide to talk to them via face book chat. Now let me tell you, me and Lacy got along fine up till this very moment we even text-ed sometimes not about work stuff. i really like Lacy they are mad cool. the only problem i have with Lacy is that They say some things that aren't quite politically correct and other members get offend and complain to me. so i was just tell Lacy that some people find some of the people on the board find things you say offensive, though i personally think your funny. try to remember that there are sensitive people on the board. then Lacy to me to bug off and un-friended me and hasn't talked to me since despite me trying to contact them. i mean i don't get why they are so upset that was put in a very nice way i could have been like i hate you because every time you open your mouth you piss somebody off and i have to defend you because you don't understand how to work with people. but i didn't i was good. can anybody help me make sense of why Lacy is so upset with me. 


okay so by now i know you guys have seen the video. i know i am fat and i suck at public speaking. lol no i know i am the sexyest person you have every seen but try not to drool. lol that will be the only video blog you will ever get from me because i hate being on camera. i might do a video where i am talking in the background and you can see what i see but you won't be able to see me. i hope things with the board get better because N.O.N is my favorite event of the year. dance party protest, YES! but it won't be a very good N.O.N if we can't get it together. idk why we don't realize that we, what we do, is bigger than ourselves and we need to act that way at least 75% of the time. ( i can't say 100% of the time because i can't even pull that off myself so how can i ask something of others that i can't do myself). but i digress. i will keep you guys posted. leave comments Stay Fierce

Skitt: What's the T?

a very late video blog

skit: and other random side note

Hey, guys this is pre-post and a post- post to my previous and next blog post. Last week I did a blog for my theater workshop group. So that is why there weren't any little notes at the bottom. First, I want to talk about the picture. your guys are used to a picture full color usually rainbows but I felt like if I had a picture like that it would contradict the whole message of the post. So I wanted my picture in gray scale because each gray is a slightly different shade of gray. All the shades work together to create the picture. Also, Roosevelt is a train stop on the CTA Train. (CTA is the public transportation system for Chicago) any way. At this, particular stop 3 trains, several buses, and a Metra train. (Metra is the train that runs out in to the suburbs in the surrounding area around Chicago) there are so many people there in this small little neighborhood. There are 2 colleges their and so are college kids there and a professor, people from all walks of life. There. These people are all different and made up experiences and ideas. So I thought that if you knew something about the place or read into it and saw the reason for the grey scale then it made sense. If not that is why I add these little notes. 

umm before I start talking about my next post, I will tell you about my life. Lucky you. I have been in my little love circle friend group for a while now it is great. We go out every Saturday after workshop and just have a good time. We are always vouguing and dancing. We sing outside as we walk down the street. It is like Tonight Is The Night by Outasight. We take so many pic that end up on Facebook and on Sunday we are like oh snap let’s take some of those down lol. Any way I have noticed something among lots of my gay guy friends that to their straight gal pals they the “gay best friend" and I noticed that they need a gay best friend of their own. So I am now skittles the official gay best friend for gay guy lol. I love those guys so much you guys just don't know. Other than that, I have been doing a lot of school related crap lately so I am getting busier and busier. It kind sucks. :( I hope I will still be able to make my Wednesday dead lines. If I don't think I will be able, I will at least leave you guys a note that says like gone fishing. (And by that, I mean I am going to jump of a freaking low bridge in to a stream so I at least sprain my ankle cuz this work is bullshit.) 

Okay, now to the important stuff, I will be making a video for my Wednesday blog this week and there will be notes after it but probably no picture. :( My director wants us to do a video blog for Saturday so I will be doing mine for you guys and my theater group. Now I just have to figure out what to talk to you guys about and how not to look like an idiot on camera :(. I am always the one doing the filming or behind the camera, cuz I look awful on screen but you guys will get to see me for the first and last time ever unless Sara, the director, makes us do another video.

Skit: duality and lables

Okay so i am kinda late. My bad. Normally i write a blog beforehand and schedule it to post on Wednesday, but i forgot to write on ahead of time this week. i even forgot that it was Wednesday until about noon yesterday. However, i did remember that i still have to blog this week so lucky you guys. The reason i forgot to blog in the first place was that i was so busy. i have school, family, work, clubs, and theater i mean that keeps me pretty busy. Thankfully, i am not so busy that i cannot stop and notice things. i noticed in my little metropolitan area that i live in that people are still hesitant about coming out of the closet. However, it is not for the formal or as some people call it the conversational reason. They fear isn't that they won't be accepted or that they will be met with resistant. The fear is that they will be labeled homosexual and that is all they will ever be to people. I have to agree once you come at as Queer it is a major thing to most people and that is all they see you as.  It is very difficult to live a life with multiple layers and labels because some labels tend to over shadow all other. Like this character in my play, I think his name is Reilly. Reilly has I 3 dominant labels that are conflicting when you think about them stereotypically. He is A Football jock, Smart, and Gay. What I know of Reilly ( for I know very little haven’t read all of the script) he handles these labels very well not letting any one layer be more dominant than the other. Instead of letting, the labels be like layers they are more like gears a movements in a clock, not functioning unless all of the pieces work together equally. In a clock, one gear or piece isn’t more important or dominant than the other because the clock as a whole can function without all of pieces. Reilly wouldn’t be himself he would not functions as the character he is without all of his labels his pieces. You can let your labels be layers and be the definition of who you are, or you can be a clock and let the labels bring about a functional beautiful piece of art. I personally like to choose a third option called no labels because I enjoy quite a flux in my life where I go back and forth between extremes, never quite being in a grey area. I don’t like to label myself or as I see it pulling myself apart and sort me into groups. That idea that I can be sorted just bothers me so I tell myself I am me. I am who I am, not pieces or labels,  I am whole person. People can label me but I will not label myself I refuse to limit myself in such a way. Be who you want to be because you can’t control the people around you. So if you are gay and want to be flamboyant with it without letting it become who you are then do that. Like I said last week be FIRCE.