As you may have guessed me and Amoriartii's story isn't over. It's not perfect but its not over and that's the most important part to me. We are on a pause where we aren't trying or activitly work on falling more in love with each other. We are going to keep in touch and be the closest of friends we can be having this romantic history. I will actually get to spend more time with them because they are doing 50 bills 50 states, which is a push to end conversion therapy in all 50 states. So they will be all over the us and flying through my airports a lot so they will take long layovers and we will get lunch or dinner before they go home. I am really excited for all of that. I will get to come visit in the summer and we will move from there. But why would I do this it just seems like I'm dragging out inevitable pain. Well one I like to avoid pain at all cost, even if that cost is at my detriment eventually. Two because if you haven't gathered this already I'm madly in love with them. I do it all for love. Its crazy I know to take an indeterminate time off but it's what we both need right now. They are proposing to Felix in May and need time to just foucus on that. I need to foucus on Cyborg because we are in a really fragile place. If I want to make this relationship work with him I have to give it the attention it deserves. So I'm trying. I can't say I'm still not hurting because I want more but I know I can't have that right now. Love is supposedly patient so I will wait for as long as I can because I really want this. I love Amoriartii. I'll do almost anything in the name of love.
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