When will love stop feeling like an addiction. I admit it I was addicted to them. Why else would I tolerate the way I was treated? I'm better and stronger than that. But here without them, all I want to do is crawl back into thier arms. I want them back. I want the pain and abuse. I hate how empty I feel without them. I hate how lonely I am. I hate who I am without them. I know that will all change in a month or two. But right now everything hurts. I don't eat. I barely sleep even with my sleeping meds. I'm trying not to rebound becuase no one deserves just to be someone's rebound but its so hard. I know I left him so I should be fine but it's not that easy. I love them with my mind, soul, and spirit. Everything that is me resonates with them. I want that. Send me strength to keep on without them. I am not strong enough to do this alone but I'm being forced to. God help me.
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