Skit: um.... sexual

I don't know if you know this but I am Bisexual. Surprise!! But my use of the word is way more complex than the most common: I like boys and girls. It is true but it is so much more than that. Its also more complicated than the super queer definition: I am sexually attracted to boy and girls. Though also more or less true. I am Bi/Pan romantic: I am usually romantically attracted to people who identify as one of the two genders in the binary gender system; However, because I love a person not a gender and you just don't know a persons gender up front if I fall for someone who I later discover lies outside this system that's fine too. Then in top of that I am kinda demisexual kinda asexual, somewhere on the grey scale ( grey scale: scale of sexual attraction from asexual to sexual that includes demisexual and demiromantic). I wrote a post about wishing I was asexual and guess who got their wish? This bitch! Its actually really nice not being sexual attracted to anyone. But I think what I wanted is to be aromantic: not romanticly attracted to anyone. However, every once and a while I fall for someone and I want to do them, like knock their boots! But I have to like them romantically first, thus me being demisexual. But just cuz I like someone romantically doesn't mean I will be sexually attracted to them. Life is hard. I am not saying there isn't a sexual beast somewhere locked deep down inside of me but she hardly ever gets out. But when ahe does god help us. I get strong crazy sexual urges but they aren't directed to or caused by a person the urges are just there. Its like I was asexual yesterday and had been for two and a half years, what are these feelings in my pants! So when I say I am bisexual I mean I like people who fit into the binary gender system, but everyone is generally welcomed,; and I have to like someone romantically before jumping in to bed with them but just because I like you doesn't mean you can ride my motorcycle. Also there is a sexual monster that slumbers inside of me please do not wake her up.