Skit: 2022 year in review

This is going to be short. This year was dominated by heart break. That was the theme. I hurt for 90% of the year. 

 I've made some progress in therapy. Mostly not assuming the worst first. I'll still count it as a possibility obviously but I'm not going to say the most probable thing to happen or even listed as the first option.

 I'm getting rid of people who I call friends but haven't really been friends and that's really difficult. The one in New Orleans is the first one to go in 2023. 

My standards of whether I'm a good friend or not I've been tested this year. It's been difficult to be the good friend I want to be and stay employed. I do feel like I need to work on showing up when it's hard. I've got showing up when it's not convenient. I've got showing up when it's uncomfortable. But I don't quite have showing up when there are negative consequences for me. I don't know if I want to gain that level of sacrifice. I have to make sure that the person is worth it. 

That's it not much else happened. Not much to reflect on here. No major life changes, no lost of important relationships. Pretty stable all things considered just painful. 

Ps. I moved Eta Carina to the people I've dated. Which is different than the people I've loved.