Skittles: what is love

I'm having something really strange happen to me emotionally. I can't tell wether or not I'm vibing with people or if I like them. I am in a good place in my life for the first time in a while. I'm not struggling financially, I'm happy with my job, and I have friends that really care about me. It's not wired being in a good place but it is strange to be so confusingly happy towards others. I've been around at least three people and had to ask myself what is going on here. I'm positive it's just me and that they were not in fact flirting with me but I'm still confused. One thing that has been consistent through my whole life is my ability to distinguish my romantic attraction from my platonic ones. My feelings towards someone was and is often the only perceivable distinction between romantic and platonic relationship in my life. I try not to make rules that generalize types of relationships because that's not really helpful for me. I want the relationship to reach it's full potential and be the best it can be for both people. I do have rules about what I won't tolerate but they are the same rules for both platonic and romantic. Romantic attraction feels one way and wanting to be friends with someone feels different. This feeling feels like none of that. It's not indifference either. I've gotten along with people really well but not liked them even as friends, I just find them displeasing. I've not gotten along with people and loved them, husband number 7 is the perfect example of this. But this is a definite undefined interests. Is it a undefined tertiary attraction, it is an alterous attraction (an attraction that is not entirely romantic, platonic, or sexual which involve having a deep emotional closeness and connection more than a friendship, not necessarily physical, and not the same as a romantic relationship. In theory what I had with Lovely), is it romantic, platonic, or sexual. No one knows and I don't really want to find out. I'm a little afraid of the feeling because I don't know what it is. Maybe someone will come along and I'll want to figure it out. Until then I'm going to run away from the cute nice people.