While I was in recovery for my depression, I wrote Amoriartii almost every day for the first two weeks. Mostly about how I was adjusting and any struggles I may have encountered. After that I got lazy and comfortable. There wasn't much to write that I hadn't said not already said. I thought about sharing all the letters with all of you, but like I said above, I am very lazy and I honestly don't think you would enjoy all of them. I am going to publish one tomorrow. It is probably the most important letter I wrote to them and I didn't have the courage to send it. Not in its entirety.
I also wrote one letter to my boyfriend Cyborg. When he finally got it, he wanted to talk about it in person. However, I avoid things that make me uncomfortable, like the plague so I wanted to talk about it over the phone where I would be safe. He insists on having the conversation in person which just makes me not want to have it at all. So after the letter I may or may not share what transpires between Cyborg and I.
I know I haven’t been writing much not for lack of things happening, but for lack of words to say. I use this blog to process my life when I can’t do it in my mind. I’ve been getting better at internal processing things and I have a boyfriend who helps me externally talk thing out. This blog might undergo some changes after the presidential election. For fear not I will have a lot to say about the presidential debates. After that though I might need to make some adjustments.
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