I am taking a leave of absence in August due to my health. I won't have to work or go to school. All I have to do is try to get better. I won't be able to see my friends and I have a strict visitation list that some of my family will be on. I'll be gone for a month with limited internet access. So I'll write but I probably won't get a chance to upload anything until September. With all this time to foucus on myself I have a once in a lifetime chance to get over amoriartii. I will have all this time to foucus on me without any way to contact them. I desperately want to give us a chance. I've waited 3 years for this. But it is killing me. The problem is I don't if we be togther before limbo kills me. If we aren't I need to take this opportunity. But I know I haven't given limbo enough time. I gave us pretending not to have feelings for each other 3 years. Its only been 6 months. I know I'm in a rush and quick too act but it's only becuase I really want this. Having to let it go would be hard and excruciatingly painful. But holding on means I will never get a chance to get over them in one fail swoop so quickly ever again. I need to decide if my temporary unhappiness and future pain, if I choose wrong, is worth the chance at a possible life time of happiness.
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