Hip Hip Hip Horah Yes Yes Yes your gay. so i don't know how many
times i am going to say it but i am Bisexual. ( i guess i will say it every
time it is relevant and i feel like i should bring it back up). being bi i
feel like i try to keep a balance between both sides of me and the different
often opposing aspects of my life. i have myself which is
the real me all the time and i feel like that is pretty balanced. however
i do find it very difficult to present a balanced version of myself to
the outside world. i mean they can't fallow me around 24/7 and see me.
they can only see what i present to them. often they only get
to see one side of me because that side fits in more in that
situation. thus they label me one thing or the other because they
don't get the full package. for example one of my clubs is made up mostly
of women i share a lot of their experiences naturally because i
am a girl. so i do like shoes and hot guys ( yes that
is stereotypical but it is for a point so hold your horses) so today
they called me femy and said " you must be the girl in the relationship
right". No that is one of the things I hate the most being labeled in to a
position in a relationship by people I will never, have never been in a
relationship with. Most of the time I go by no label because I feel freer, less
constricted. I don’t want to conform to a label I might be a square today but I
might be a triskaidecagon ( a 13 side geometric figure/ polygon you have to
remember I am a nerd lol) later. if I had to choose a label for myself it would be
stem. (stud and fem basically the same thing as power versed) yeah I am just a
little fence sitter hahaha. However, I am having the hardest time keeping the
balance between the stud side and the fem side. But that’s all going to change because like I
tell you guys being fierce is about staying true to yourself every single piece
and every side. I know balance is hard to find and even harder to master but
with the right scale it is achievable.
I went to a dance on Saturday I think. I mean it was a really busy
day. I had make signs for Night of Noise. I got up supper early (cuz I refuse
to drive I hate it ). I am pretty sure that it rained and I got wet and had a
mini melt down cause my hair got ruined ( I probably just blow dried it back to
sexiness) I mean I couldn’t have a full melt down there was a pretty girl there.
I know I sent way too much time getting ready and running around like a chicken
with my head cut off ( freaking out because the same pretty girl was going to
be at the dance). Oh wait * side note the signs still turned out nice even though
they got rained on. And after we did some sign making we did some Tia food
eating. They forgot the salad option that my friend asked for but it was cool
because we decide to be fat any way. forget salad* I was late to the dance but
it was cool cause no one gets to a dance on time except the people throwing it.
I am sure I had a good time. But I don’t
know for sure yet because it is Wednesday (the worse day of the week cuz I have
the hardest time every time trying to spell this shit) 4/11 about 9:30 so none
of this has happened yet but I am pretty sure this is how things will play out.
I will tell you guys what actually happened next week from today which is 4/18
so you will find out on 4/25 or earlier if I really can’t contain myself.
leave me comments i am so serious, and stay supper Fierce
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