9/30/12

skit: words words words



Hey guys so you know how I said I wasn't learning anything gay, well I lied.  I learned what polyamorous is. Is still doing know what aero spectrum is but I digress. Any way what is Polyamory? Polyamory is where you can love more than one person at once and/or be emotionally dating more than one person at a time. From what I understand of it ideal polygamy starts with ideal polyamory. I have to put ideal in there because theoretical someone who is polyamorous loves both people equally, thus nobody is shorthanded. All parties involved are given the same amount of love and treated the same. Same with ideal polygamy all partners are love and treated equally. However we are human and history has taught us that things that work in theory don't always work when applied. so even though I don't know if it works out this way in real life I am going to say at least 90% of the time it doesn't ( I mean statistics is not on their side). With all that being said I think that it is a really cool identity. I also think someone who truly identifies as this (not someone who just wants to sleep around that's something else completely) really is in touch with themselves. I mean you have to know yourself and the type of person you are to be able to say seriously and honest that you are polyamorous. You have to have a long conversation with yourself about yourself and how you love to know things like this about yourself. More importantly it had to be an honest one which nobody really wants to do. They think they do and they think they are being honest with themselves and they aren't. They are all liars. Because being honest with you is one of the hardest things to do. We like to lie to ourselves it makes us feel all warm and fuzzy on the inside. (mmmmm hot piping steamy bowl of crap that we just served to our self mm it look good). Why because when you lie you are lying to yourself for your own personal gain. Like no theses jeans don't make me look fat and I am not overweight I am just finally growing some curves, but all of it is lies. it take more than strength to tell yourself the truth because if it is actually some deep stuff 9 times out of 10 its going to be something you don't even want to hear from God. So props to you for being able to talk to yourself. Then they had to explain it to the various people they are in love with and that could get messy. I am not going to lie I imagine that conversation going down like an episode of the Jerry Springer show. It doesn't look to classy in my head, thing don't go well. so just when you think our polyamorous friend is out of trouble there is one more unforeseen complication. They have to keep 2 people happy and treat them both equally.  I mean I know how hard it is to keep one women happy I couldn't imagine doing it with 2. I don't know about guys through. I just couldn't imagine how a male would react to being told that he has to share you with someone else. Polyamory people you’re the shit because you deal with way more that I could ever handle y'all got made relationship skills. That’s all I have to say about this post. I am going to a brunch today ( Sunday the 30th) if something cool happens maybe the next post will actually be a life post, but until then.
(is song is just odd it has nothing to do with post and i normally don't do covers but his voice makes the voice in my head scream at me to put it on here check him out)
Stay Fierce

9/21/12

Skit: talk to me



Hey guys this is one of those min post that I find myself writing in my philosophy class. People have started to post on my blog. And to those 2 people I want to say thank you. Thank you so very much. There is nothing better than going to check the blog and there being a comment there. It is the best feeling in the world. To the rest of you I encourage you to comment as well. I read them and respond to them because I feel like if someone took the time to write it I should take the time to write back.  If you write me questions I will answer them either in a comment, the little blurb that I put at the end of my big serious post, or a full on blog depending on the question. So if you have a question about something I wrote something queer or something in general I will answer it to the best of my ability. No joke yo, especially if I get asked something I know nothing about I will research it, talk to other people about it, I will find out about it. Then I will write back with what I found.  So please please please if you have anything to say about my blog, anything you want to ask, anything you thought about the blog or thought because of the blog share it. if you just don’t want people knowing it was you, you can comment anonymously. However beware if you comment as anonymous I will write back to you but I will refer to you as anonymous. Lol haha J so yeah leave comments on stuff. I write back unless you tell me not to. (song)
stay firce yo  

9/19/12

Skit: education reform?

this has nothing to do with the issue or how there striking but i thought it was funny because pony can't strike they do no work

I feel like I was going to write something else this week but when I sat down to write today I forgot what it was. I think it was going to be about something gay. Oh well. As you all know I live in the USA specifically the mid-west. And there is something interesting going on in my little region. Politics!!!! Oh yes the lying cheating and scheming continues in the bread bowl. My state in particular is very "good" at this. We have 4 governors in jail for various reasons.  Our mayors are a little better at staying out of jail but they still find themselves in hell of trouble. Like now are teachers are on strike because he increased the school day and didn't want to pay the teachers more money.  (I mean it's not effecting me cuz I'm in college but I loved 95% of all the teachers I've ever had and I think they should've been paid more money before the longer school day). But wait there’s more. The mayor hired a new ceo of cps (Chicago public schools) at twice the salary of the last guy (and trust me we are not getting our money’s worth). Then he was like let's increase the school day. And he passed this increase running on a platform of lies. Here was the idea (crap he fed to the uneducated parents): if we lengthen the school day then we can bring back art and music programs, library, recess. Our math and science scores will go up because we have more time in class. It sounds nice right but it's a load of bull believe me. To bring back art and music first you would need the funding. Because 90% of the time the cash isn't there. How are you going to have a program without the money to back it? You can have all the time in the world for art but when you can't even afford pen and paper (or to pay the teacher to teach the class). Moving on, he said test scores would go up because the kids will be in class longer, BS. Take it from someone who had the same class for about 2 hrs. a day just because the class is longer doesn't mean you learn more. You have the potential to but people don't always reach their potential. And last but not least the only truth to this speech of lies, the time will be spent mostly on recess. Not library but recess. Why because a library cost money that has been wasted higher up. It’s been wasted on administration and not even the ones in the school. No the people in central office who never see hear or come in contact with a kid. It's being wasted on the old ways instead of going with something new. They miss-manage and fall short all the time and then they leave the children to fend for themselves. And rather than just admit that they are doing a piss poor job they project the blame on to someone else. They blamed the teachers. It isn't their fault. It is our fault we as a people are failing. We are failing our children. The teachers are often the only people in the whole equation doing their job. The parents and the big business people are not holding up their end of the bargain. I may not be a parent but I am a child and I also am a teacher ( I teach kids to swim). As a teacher I know some of the tings these teachers go through trying to improve the life of a child that’s not even theirs. It seems to me from my own experience I am willing to do more for the child then the child’s own parent is. I support them, I listen to their problems, I help them settle their difference, I teach them, I help them find their way on this path called life, and yes I cry at their graduations ( even if it is just from kindergarten because yes that’s my baby). I to so many children I am their mom, dad, sister, brother, teacher, friend, and mentor. But I am only getting paid to teach. I go out of my way to try to do whatever I can whenever I can for these kids and their not even mine. If they are in a dangerous situation 9 times out of 10 they would rather call one of their teachers then there parents. But in the learning process not all children are as gun-ho about something as the teachers and they need the parents support. They need the parents to raises them and frame their values earlier on, because by the time that child is a teenager if they don’t value education by then they never will.  The system needs changing I agree but just like there are problems with the teachers there are bigger problems at home. The problems with the teachers most of the time has nothing to do with the teachers. Bad teachers are so rare. And when the teacher is bad all the students and faculty know it. if the principals and mayors care about weeding them out as much as they say they do then we don’t have this problem at all. The problem with the teachers is that they don’t have the support and they don’t have the funds. Their problems are they aren’t being paid enough because if they need something for class that the school hasn’t provided them they are going to go buy it for their kids out of their own pockets. They need to be paid more money for dealing with your precious little delinquents and going avoid and beyond their calling. Their problems are they don’t have the classroom space or size they need to begin to be able to teach effectively.  Their problems is they don’t have the resource that the Asian countries provided their children with because they understand the value of education. But there biggest problem is that they are being judged or told what to do by some suit who hasn’t seen a child or step foot into a classroom since they were in school. That no one, not even the children, understand the struggles they go through the sacrifices they make for a child that’s not theirs. (when the people who the children belong to aren’t willing to make the same sacrifices ) what really bother’s me is that the mayor Rahm has kids which he put in private school but never have I seen him with his kids herd that he does homework with his kids put just as much time into his own children that he wants the cps teachers to put into other peoples kids. What if the school day was equivalent to the time the average American parents is willing to spend with their child every day. I mean how can you ask someone else to spend more time in your child’s life then you are willing to? If you don’t want to be with them then why should someone else. What if we evaluated our teacher on how well they conveyed the information and our politicians on how much they actually improve the issues at had and leave us in a better state than they found us. We can’t impose rules on other people that we wouldn’t want on ourselves. the parents need to support the teachers in and out of the class room because for years the teachers have been supporting them. It is time to reciprocate and make this change for education that we so desperately need but it isn’t going to happened unless we stop focusing on the teachers and start focusing on ourselves. 

so i was in resource center and i couldn't pick a song so we decided on something gay sounding the sound is call colors.  this is gay.  if you don't like it not my fault 

Stay fierce 

9/18/12

Skitt: i found it



okay so a few post ago there was a song that i really liked but i didn't know the name of it or the words to it. Good news people of the world i found it. its called "The Funeral". i just had to share this with you. by chance after months of searching i had given up and then Pandora found it. look i always found this fish. i am having a good day man. finding things lol :) oh post is coming i swear i will finish it in philosophy class tomorrow

stay fierce

9/16/12

Coming soon to a blog near you

there will be a post as soon as i have time to finish it my scheduled is so freack cray, look . and all the clubs and like study times aren't even on there. but i promise i am mid way done writing something. and you will get it soon. ( like before october) if college was like this (click me)then i would be able to write more ( but its not like that for me so i feel very lied to). don't have time to drink or party :( i haven't even had a pizza dinner yet. i am not living that stereotypical college life. but then again when is anything in my life " normal". will update soon.

Sorry,

J-Skittles  

9/1/12

Skit: new beginnings ish


so you know how i am always talking about how i go/run the these queer events and i learn stuff yada yada yada. well a lot of the time i always get this response from people ; this stuff has nothing to do with my life i will never use this crap. policy change, who needs that crap? well i am here to tell you you may never use all the skills you learn in the policy change workshop because you might never ever ever try to change some policies. but the self vocalic skill you learn in that workshop you will one day have to use. unless you know you pay some one to advocate for you all the time or you decide to be a professional door mat. also coilltion buliding people use that a lot too. except here it is called study groups. now i know you guys are out there thinking "whats up with this chick she has lost her mind these to things are nothing a like." and you would be right because your missing the general idea your thinking to specifically. knock that off. a collection is a group of people who come together to  accomplish, more or less, a very difficult task, or achieve some goal. that my friends is exactly what happens in a study group. a group of people coming together to try to pass this impossible test we have on the 15 of September (FML).  any way one of the skills that everybody learns is networking. and this is college so duh there is a lot of that. in fact my RA ( resident advisory) stress to always use protection while networking. :) hahahahaha. anyway what i am trying to say is a lot of the crap you learn in high school that you think you will never use comes back to bite you in the ass in college. you guys have no idea how many college students do not remember the crap they " learned" their freshman year of high school that comes back to haunt them there freshman year of college. i get to laugh a lot, you have no idea. i have a lot of fun. i laughed so hard yesterday in class because one kid was afraid to as the professor about bathroom rules. i personally thought this was silly because if you want to know the only way to find out is to ask the right questions. thats how you get answers duh. so yes i encourage you to brush up on your " i will never use this again" skills because the truth is you do, at least one more time.

hey guys i am officially a college freshman. i know i have been saying that a lot but it wasn't true then. it is true now i have been to class i have books i haven't been doing home work or sleeping. i have room mates they are all great i might talk about them later on in other post. this part of the post is for updates. so i've been thinking about  switching the topic of the blog. in high school i was learning a lot experiencing a lot. in college i am still experiencing but not learning so much which just sounds really bad. i am learning education stuff like calc and philosophy but not really queer stuff which is what the blog is about. i will be taking queer studies next semester and by then i might be in most of the campuses gay groups by then but for now i will keep the post short and about my life. so all day story time for a whole semester yeah!!!!!! next thing is i am going to post bi weekly. hahahaha bi jokes ha. yeah um college take up a lot of time so i have little time to write, sorry. in fact i am writing this in my Phillo class. i know i am already a bad college student.  i know you folks are all out there like " skittles what are you doing with your life" to answer your question i have no freakin' clue but in two week i will let you know if i have figure it out. or i will have a story to tell you about my life and you can figure out for yourself what i am doing with my life. and i know that is going to be difficult i mean look at that random photo for this week ( sorry btw) but if it wasn't a little bit challenge i wouldn't be so interesting. i know i am a sexy steaming bowl of confusion lol. oh! one last thing through it has nothing to do with my life i do have a song for this week MY HEART SKIPS SKIPS A BEAT (love this it makes me want to swing dance. i think there is a club for that here.)

Stay fierce yo 

ps. sorry that you guys couldn't read it for like 4 days. my bad yo i always forget to fix the font and crap. i will work on that since i am only post every two week. ( i think i can do better)