love letter to keys

I don't know how to start this because I don't know what to say. I don't want to come off too strong, but I don't want you to think I'm holding back. You asked for emotional vulnerability, which should be an excellent place to start. I love you with my whole heart already, and that's scary. Not because it's been such a short time but because it feels so right. I can't find anything that should send me running. Which makes me want to run. I'm not saying you don't have faults. You're perpetually late. You haven't cooked for me yet, but your knowledge of how to properly defrost meat makes me very suspicious of your abilities. You take on too much simultaneously and then need these breaks or need to catch up on future things instead of managing a consistent, sustainable load over more extended periods. I'm sure I'll learn more in the future, but this is just what I've noticed so far. In these faults, there's nothing toxic that would be bad for the health and longevity of our relationship. In fact, our relationship is the healthiest relationship I've ever had so far. You communicate your wants, needs, and boundaries with me. You reciprocate financially, emotionally, and physically (when I let you). You'll try new things if I ask you to. You actively try to make me feel safe. You support my well-being both mentally and physically by taking me to get massages and helping me practice meditation. You respect my boundaries and hold space for me. You see me in a way that is validating. I'm so happy while also constantly waiting for this to be ripped away from me. I am working on not being anxious about things that feel good. I'm just not there yet. However, this is helping me learn faster than I would have otherwise. Thank you for that. I'm not afraid to lose you. If you decided tomorrow it wasn't working, I would be so grateful for the time we got together. I think relationships can end amicably and still hurt like hell. But I would be in so much pain, and it is a pain I'm scared of. I am going to love you and fall deeper in love with you anyway. I don't want rings where we promise to stay together or not to hurt each other. Instead I want these rings to be a reminder to do the scary thing. Please continue to lean into pleasure, and I'll lean into vulnerability.