Often my friends point it that they don't know me as well as they thought they did. I have friends I'm very close with that I've known for more than 5yrs come to me shocked because they just realized they know nothing about me. I lead this kind of life on purpose and at this point it's my lifestyle. I'm very open about some things and talk all the time. People quickly get a feeling that they know, understand, and can trust me. But there's is so much they don't know. One of my closest friends Lovely for instance knows so much and still so little. I have very few secrets from her but there is still so much that I would tell her that she is unaware of. When we share a bed we normally cuddle. However, when we don't cuddle I wait for her to go to sleep first. In the meantime I lay and think. I worry if she toss and turn a lot, it means something's wrong in her life. Once she's in R.E.M sleep, her breathing sounds different when she's actually asleep, I get to work. I make a small blanket wall between us and make sure she has enough space. I get comfortable and listen to her breathing. Then I match my breathing to hers and I'm fast asleep in 5 minutes or less. She doesn't know this. Mostly because it's weird and she had never caught me watching her sleep. I don't mean to watch her but she's so freaking adorable when she's sleep. Just a real heaven on earth angel. But what she doesn't know makes it friendship work.
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