Skittles: 🖤🌹🖤

So many people lean on Lovely. They do what I do with the same struggles or worse hardships than me. I want to have a reciprocal relationship. They are strong for me. I can be strong for them. I can't make them trust me. I'm bad at comforting. I'm bad at not trying to fix it. But I excel at being there and showing up. I move mountains for those I love. They know where to find me, but where do they go? I want them to know how much they mean to me. I love them wholely, fully, and with the entirety of the universe. The atoms that make them are one of my favorite configurations of matter. I just don't know what elements to use to convey that to them. I'm afraid of what they would think. I'm in constant fear for the status of our friendship. I think they will doubt me and I'll continue to stress them out as they watch me fight for my life. I'm alive in here. I'm alive despite all this darkness. I'll return to my glory if only to eases their suffering, love them out loud, and find them. I'll be a warrior again. You know where to find me, Lovely I'll find you.