For three nights this month my brain has decided to have hypomanic episodes. For me these episodes include racing thoughts, fixation, jitters, and unable to sleep. I'll be up all day for at least 13 hours, going about my day. When it comes time for bed my brian fixates on something and I can't sleep until I've completed the task, answered my question, watched all available episodes, etc. Even though I take my meds at roughly the same time everyday my brain doesn't care. Its not sleeping and can't disconnect from its trival obsession.
Mania is usually attributed to Bipolar disorder and not really Depression. There is this thing where you have both and it has its own name, because hell is limitless. When talking about Bipolar disorder, mania is discribed as the high and depression as the low. I know what depressive episodes are like and they are not fun. However, that would leave one to believe that Mania is closer to a "normal mental state". That's not true either. If you haven't guessed, mania is its own demented hell. The difference between mania and depression to me seems to be energy levels. My depressive episodes feel like I have no energy or its all being drained from me. My manic episodes I have too much energy. There seem to be two distinct types of mania: Manic and
Hypomanic. Manic just seems to last longer or include psychotic breaks. The Wold Health Organization defines mania as "mood is higher than the person's situation warrants and may vary from relaxed high spirits to barely controllable exuberance, accompanied by hyperactivity, a compulsion to speak, a reduced sleep requirement, difficulty sustaining attention and often increased distractibility." If you experience Mania should definitely go see a doctor.
If you see the sandman send him my way.
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